Cinta
Seriously, is it so hard for you men out there to survive a day without that big ego sticking up in your ass? Is it hard to say “im sorry”? Is it hard to admit that you’ve made a mistake? Is it hard to take the news that your GF say it to you that’s it over before you could ? Is it hard to see your ex have a life now and not you??? Is it hard to see your ex living her life to the fullest and there you are stuck with another woman who is preggy with your baby and you have to get married because of that? (i know you are not ready, but like i said… your ego is too high that you do not want to admit it)
Will you die a day without having to give your ex a hard time in her life? You never treated her right anyway when she was with you. You hit her, you shouted at her in public, you abused her mentally, you cheated on her…why the hell do you still want to hurt her so much?? !!! Even after she have said it’s over between you two?? Gosh! For F sake leave her alone…and move on with your life dude…don’t be such a sore ass man!
Yes, i was that pissed and sad at the same time this morning, while talking to one of my “friend” at IM( idiotic friend that is)…reading what he wrote on the screen made my heart cringe with irritation and pain. While i try to hit some sense to his thick skull i didn’t realise my eyes was teary and red..yes.. i did. I did shed tears…it was so embarrassing..but i cant help it.Thank goodness, the office is kinda empty today.
I don’t know what triggered that to happen, heck actually i know what triggered that to happen it was because i was in her shoe before. I was in an abusive relationship. I was mentally and physically abused. He was a ticking bomb, you said the wrong thing( for him everything is wrong la nothing is ever right) be prepare to receive one good “loving” slap on the face!As if slapping me or hitting me is not good enough, he will find another way to hurt me…. calling me names, telling me how useless i am, how ugly i am… whatever it is la..you name it.. he have said it. My parents name was not spared too…. 
Mind you..he was 6 feet 2 and weighing 100 plus Kg and i was only 5 feet 2 and 50kg …the relationship only lasted for 7 months but it was pure hell for me… it didnt start well anyway..my fault, should have ended it much earlier…but me being me..hard headed, i continued hoping that he will change. SIGHHHHHHH.That was a BIG MISTAKE.
I can’t remember how i ended the relationship but i’m darn sure that soon after i said its over he was out having fun with another woman which turn out to be one sicko woman ( serve him good!). Me on the other hand was left all alone here in KL without anyone. All i have was his sister who was kind enough to give me a place to stay while i look for a place to rent.
4 Years later, he called me asking me to come back to him.. he told me how much he misses me and how much did he regret for treating me that way.. and this went on for 2 years!! 2 freaking years!!!And everytime he ask me to go back to him… my answer never change… It’s over, moved on and let’s be friend. Once, while i was dating someone i remember him ringing and texting me in the middle of the night, telling me that i lied to him and bla bla bla bla..Just because i didnt tell him YES I AM DATING THIS MAN! Hmmm…
Anyway, this was 8 years ago… but hell no,i have never forgotten how much he have hurt me or abused me before.
Sigh…
To all the men out there, Love and respect your woman. Remember we are not your punching bag/toy or even pet beds which you can just kick us and push us aside. We are just like you, human with feelings and needs.
“Kadang kadang orang yang paling kita sayang la yang paling susah untuk disayangi” Bukan senang nak dapat teman hidup yang sanggup terima buruk baik kita, sanggup berkorban untuk kita, sanggup hidup bersama hingga ke akhir hayat“- Taken from Cinta.
Nessa says:
I’m glad you got out of that abusive relationship, even if it took 7 months. Women are always hopeful, even if they became punching bags. Geez, I hate your 6 feet 2 ex. How could someone treat a girl like that?? Jahat kopizo!!
*Hugs*
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kaDusMama says:
Thank god she came to her sense, she dumped him and move on with her life all alone in kl too..now she is happily married with 2 beautiful kids..
Before i got married, i already warned my hubby never ever lie his hand on me, or…Tiada maaf bagimu!! hehee
*Bah..kestau si Dan..treat you well or else…
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Nick Phillips says:
Glad you left that bum! No one has the right to be abusive to anyone!
Oh and Happy holidays
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Angeline says:
*hugs* oh girl *big hugs* some man are just beyond hope! I’m glad you stuck to your decision of ‘NOT GOING BACK TO HIM!!!’ its definitely OVER! keep it that way! I just hope he will NOT turn up one day and go crazy infront of you!
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charlenediane says:
Well said moi.
And btw, good riddance
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darshikie says:
astaga moi! seriously I didnt know. cuba kunun ko kestau apa nama dia, sia bawa tu kazen2 sia pigi pukul, buduh eh. mcm mana dia pukul ko.. ko kestau, mcm tu juga kamiurg pukul. (gangster ehh!)
anyways, it’s gud that it’s over, kestau kama si Dan, jgn kama mcm2 sama ko..jaga bilang. hahahah! I know Dan is a nice guy… but if ever.. ko kestau sija.I’m willing to listen and help. Seriously.
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edna says:
let it go mel. past is the past and we all make horrible mistakes. the important part is how to rise above after that. yah, senang cakap, tapi kena buat juga la. kalau ndak terbawa bawa to our current love life.
take it from me. my ghosts keep on haunting me, then haunted my marriage. we really had to sit down, become ‘ghost busters’ and exterminate all this bad memories, one by one. it was hard and long, but time will heal. and it will do the same to you.
another way is to leave it all to God. make peace and He will help you with it!
happy hols, jangan murung and stay safe on the roads..
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