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Nicole, i think she is one hot lady! I like her toned body and she’s really unique..there is something about her that you can just look and look without getting bored. Oh and she can dance peeps!!

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Fergie…this one woman i don’t mind turning lesbian for! She is just so womanly..saw her live here in Malaysia… she is so gorgeous ok..she have the right curves and all at the right place.. she is tone but not too skinny..she also one heck of a singer and performer .. i used to love angelina..but now she is just too skinny..so she’s out of my list.. but heh.. i love her eyes and lips still though..

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Pink- I admire this woman for her talent, her guts..she never pretend to be someone else..she sing and say what she wants…and never scared of it…which i think i need to learn and have in me…

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and last JLO! She just doesn’t seem to age doesn’t she? hahahahaha.. she is in her 40 now..and she still look as sexy and young as when she just started her career..obviously… that is the reason why i want to be like her… FOREVER YOUNG AND YUMMY! EVEN IF IM ALREADY AT THE AGE OF 40/50! hahaahhah

p/s: Yes i know most of the artist nowadays banyak pakai botox,fillers and all sana sini.. but no harm to admire them right?

Ba siapa mau tau mana mau buat paternity test or mana mau cari tu tempat buat paternity test… just follow the link.. im sure that one will help you..although i don’t know why you need or should do it for.. maybe just out of curiosity kut…LOL!

I bought shoe, makeup from bodyshop and shopped for baju again at Catwhiskers! But this month most of my baju pretty much on full price..sigh.. only 1 or 2 piece on 50% discount.. oh well, i need to change my wardrobe and style anyways…

It’s also because i’m turning 30 this month so i thought why not spend a lil on myself. I want to pamper myself…:) Hmm i wish i can say the same about my work though…LOL! Boss, can i go slow on my work this month since it’s my birthday month? wakakka.. Sorry naik lorry i think he will tell me! CIT!

Anyhow, like i said in my earlier phrase… i am turning BIG 30 this year! I can’t wait and im excited about it! No, there is no big plan for me to celebrate this 30 and be really excited about it… but it’s just the number that excites me.. it’s BIG 30 you all!! I feel like it’s a big deal for me to be able to be here at age 30! I may have not accomplish so much in my life but hey.. just being here… reaching 30..see the world and do something… i think it’s BIG DEAL!

I also feel 3.0 is SEXY! I always believe that once you reach 30..that is the time you really turn into SEXY MATURE WOMAN!  ” of course, provided you jaga diri la”  To be honest, i feel more beautiful now than i was in my teen time..i feel more sexier now than i was in my early 20′s! I feel more womanly  now than i was in my late 20′s and i’m seriously LOVING IT!! Ah.. age, maturity, experiences..really do change the way you look and see things ain’t it?

I’m looking forward to celebrate my big 30 with friends this month..it’s nothing big …just a small gathering and chit chat session.. i don’t intent to get drunk or pissed drunk.. but i just wanna hang out and see all my friends whom i have not met for so long… So i guess like every other years… my birthday celebration will starts 2 weeks before the real date! Hahahha.. to all my sabahan friends here in KL.. if you are reading this… JOM KELUAR!!

And sesiapa yang mau duduk di rumah tengok tv instead of hanging out with us the cool people.. this may suits you well…. library step stools , LOL! Jadi ulat buku at home…:P

My new toy..6 inch heels from NOSE!!

My first 6 inch heels… let’s see if i can work this heel or not.

And this, i bought last month from Charles and Keith. My fav shop at the moment!  This shoe is so comfy that i can walk in it the whole day without feeling the pain! Worth the money.  Oh and this is 4 inch heels

On top of that i am not feeling well..i am having flu and sore throat . Work is pilling up like crazy i seriously feel like i don’t have time to even relax and have time for myself after working hour. All i think of now is my work! I hate feeling like that.. i mean, office hours done..i should be able to rest and stop thinking about it isn’t it? But lately, i feel like im being rushed to do things that is wayyyyyyy beyond my working hour. and the loads just got bigger and heavier now.

Anyway, i was looking at buy gold online tadi…not bad juga dia punya design. very unique and nice ni.. if i have the moolah i would not mind buying one

Anyway, yesterday i found out that i am allergic to my own sweat according to the doctor, my sweat  caused me to have spots on my back.. it’s not like panau..but look like panau. Panau normally if you scratch it, it will turn whiter and powerdering looking kan? This on it just turn red and nothing else.. entah what skin issue is this that im having. Doctor said i can only take this med after my antibiotic course  finished and done with..so that’s about 1 week or 2 from now. Sigh… He said i may have got it from letting my sweat dry and stayed on my skin for long.. but then again, i remember last time..lepas sia workout..sia mandi.. sia betul betul dapat panau pula…LOL! Hmmm.. i just think i got this from the workout mat at the gym… kan banyak orang pakai the mat.. i need big towel next time around  to cover the mat whenever i use it.  I really hope, once and for all..this skin disease and issue will just go away la… too tired of it too.

Will i be like the dalmation soon?? Spot 101?? OH DEAR!

Ba ok la, gtg back to my work! Have a great day peeps!

P/s: If you are looking for skinny ties, please do drop by at the link given.

For now, i want to bercerita with you all..i feel like bercerita saja today. I think i need it…

For the past few weeks , my emotion have been going up and down like a roller coaster ride.. sometimes i fall so deep that i feel like giving up on everything and when that comes.. i hate everything around me, Im upset, angry and agitated… i just feel like crying and just be angry..i rather be alone and just sit quietly one corner and just cry..Sigh..This is not minta kesian punya post cos i know someone will say that to me one day… this is not minta kesian post..but a post where i need to be heard,release and maybe understood.

Small issue seems big for me now, i cry easily too.. i feel like im losing myself to this virus in me… i don’t know what i can do to help myself out… i know im very much effected already cos even in my sleep i get that same dream, nightmare some calls it… whenever i get this nightmare, i will definitely end up screaming and crying in my sleep… waking up feeling even more angrier and frustrated..more questions flood my head..doubt and insecure… urh.. i so hate it! Yes…i don’t get that much peaceful sleep now… this nightmare visits me at least twice a week … and it never fails to make me cry,feel broken and angry.

Sometimes i think i need a shrink… i need someone to fix my head,my emotion..my whole being… give me a new me again.. so i forget everything and feel brand new..i just wanna be cured…i want to feel good again..i really do…..

But do you believe me if i say im sick? Or will you just say this is a post yang minta kesian or minta puji?

I may look strong..act strong..happy, smiley and all that….but trust me…i feel rotten deep inside me… and i wanna get out of that feeling…

I don’t need and want to be judge but i just need you to hear me, understand me and maybe some word of encouragement…advice..

I am trying to build my courage to call a counselor for advice but the thought of people judging and how it may effect the people around me…terrify me… and i know i need support and not someone to judge me…. crucify me and blame me…..

Sigh…

Anyway, i love this song so much..i feel the lyrics…and yes…  i wanna fight and win this  ”virus” battle and be healthy again..i have a future waiting for me out there… my marriage, my husband, my mom, my family, my friend, my future children and most of all..me, myself.

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Have a great day peeps…. enjoy life and never take anyone for granted in your life..trust me….

So if you wanted to have all those hustle and bustle and crazy music and less privacy.. Chaweng beach is the place for you.. but if you wanted a quiet and peaceful and more privacy, cheongmon is a great place to be.. i love where we stayed.

As for the rate, Daniel was really lucky that he got it cheaper than it’s original price. He found it on the net but sorry peeps, i don’t know what’s the site called pula.. he did say something about that site but i don’t remember the name anymore. The original price for the room per nite is at RM800 but of cos we got it way cheaper than that..thanks to the site and my clever husband, LOL! Kalau saya tu..mana la sia pandai masuk net mencari….

Our room is just one of the other design they have there..there was another one that comes with their own private pool… the manager offered us that room, all we need to do was to  add on another Rm500 per nite..but of cos i said no sebab i want to shop!! hahahahahahahah..so no we did not try that room… siapa la mau ada private pool when there is like 2 public pools for us to use in that hotel! Righttttttttt???

For a week i was there, i actually never visited their pub I mean Q signature hotel pub..im not even sure if there is one..hahah so im not sure if they have Rocky Patel brand cigar or not there…sorry for those who loves their cigar and specially this brand..i can’t help you out.

Anyway, enough of talking..here’s the picture of the hotel for you to see, enjoy!!

The second swimming pool in this hotel and the rest of the hotel rooms

My fav in the room..hahaha yes, i like soaking in bathtub and the view that’s offered here…SUPERB!!! Sea view….

The walkway to the bedroom

Jeng jeng jeng… the bed!

The balcony view..facing the greenery.. NICE!!

Small TV for such a big room!

The first thing you see when you enter the room.

So yup guys, that’s our room and that’s Q signature hotel for you I highly recommend this hotel for you if you ever visit Samui in future…

P/s:  Let me tell you something funny…. in samui there’s so many dogs around…BIG FAT HUGE SIZE DOGS!!! Im not joking!! Even their strays are fat and chubby!  Most of them are very very friendly…

But i think that night when we were on our way back to our hotel…. we met a dog who is not in a good mood.  As soon as Daniel and i rode pass him, the dog started chasing for my leg, of cos i was so scare..i started screaming but Dan inda prasan yg tu anjing mengejar my kaki and still riding slow.. not until when my kaki sudah ternaik mau sampai tu handle and still screaming on top of my lungs then only he realized and speed up…hahahhahaha… if i remember that night again.. i still could laugh my head out.. i mean..which honeymooner kena kejar anjing on their honeymoon trip??!! hahahahahahahahahaha… only in samui!

Merry Christmas and Happy Boxing Day to you all! I hope you’ve gotten loads of Christmas presents this year from your friends and Family

I definitely had fun with this year Christmas. Not only I’ve gotten to learn new recipe from my dear Mother In Law but i also got to cooked for 1 dish for the whole family during Christmas Eve dinner.

Family and friends came from afar to celebration Christmas with us, although it was not as hectic as previous years but i find it better as i get to spent more quality time chit chatting and catching up with them again. At least, i don’t need to run up ad down every now and then

Anyway, since 2010 is ending real soon. I thought it would be good for me to do some reflection on what have happen in my life during 2010. Just the way for me to be thankful and be reminded that i may not have a super perfect life, but i should be thankful with God in every way with what he have blessed me with and given to me this 2010.

Early 2010

My fiance ( Then) and I were busy with preparing our wedding arrangement. Going back and forth to kk for photo shoot, make up trial with my MUA and all the hall and hotel arrangement. Back in KL, we were also busy with Kl wedding arrangement. Same thing, busy with photo shoots, make up trial…dinner arrangments.. Etc etc..  It was hectic early 2010, but if you ask me..would i want to do it again? HELL YEA! hahaha.. I truly enjoyed the photo shoots, make up session and wedding gown changing.  I mean..how often do you get to dress up pretty and pose for camera kan??  Of cos, married with the same man over and over again la…LOL! Kalau balik  balik tukar man.. er ada problem sikit tu kan, don’t you think?? hahhaha

By Mid month of 2010-Officially as husband and wife! We had a wonderful dinner reception in KK .. love the whole arrangement and enjoyed the whole event there. I love everything about my wedding in KK. By  June, we had another reception here in kl.. another hectic crazy day but im very lucky that i have my husband who’s more than willing to take over all the details into his hand. I was a relax bride if you want to know…heheh so no bridezilla moment for me at all… YEAY!

Mid June- Right after our wedding reception ( 1 week after i guess) our house got broken into! All our gold jewellery gone!  Camera with all our  wedding pictures in it..GONE! Sigh..till now i am still angered by the fact that he took our camera from us.. i mean… it’s our wedding pictures, i can’t find that moment back anymore..gold at least i could buy it back by time.. sakit hati to the max!

Nasib la my engagement ring (although it’s not cubic zirconia engagement rings But still significant to me) and wedding ring sia inda kasih tinggal di dalam tu almari..if not sure it will be gone too!

By month of September, i got a news that i will be featured almost every Monday on NTV7 breakfast show to talk about fitness and health matter. I was super happy, nervous and clueless at the same time, LOL! What a feeling i tell you. The show was scheduled to go on for 3 months.. starting from end sept all the way to end Dec.  During this time, i met the beautiful Daphne Iking, Aisha Sinclair, Joanne and of cos the tall hunky Jansen ( we used to work together back in Fitness first) and the crazy, funny and friendly Naz. Going live on national tv was surreal for me..i mean how many of us have been given a chance on appearing live on tv that often, Right??  I may not get paid tonnes of money for the appearance..but hell..i’ve gained so much experience from this event and that i will treasure till the end of my life.

I also have been featured in magazine and newspaper.. i guess my “fame” luck was really running well this year … although i wish the same for my ” Money” luck ..but hmmm..maybe in 2011.

Gummi my dog also been featured in one of the pet magazine ( super proud moment for me and my dog ) but by month of Nov she was diagnose with Chronic kidney disease.. sigh.. it was a heart breaking news for Dan and I.  Knowing well that she has not much time left with us ( but im still hoping that she will fight and stay another few more years with us) and she will never get to fully recover from this disease. But so far, God have been answering my prayers, she is still the active cute gummi she is, cheerful and happy ..got her appetite back and now on the way to gain a good healthy weight back in her tummy  I am truly very thankful to God for that. All those food and medication expenses..albeit it being expensive but Gummi’s life is more important to me now then the money.. money i can always cari balik.. but i cannot find another gummi in life.

Of cos there’s more thing have had happen in my life during 2010..but i guess this is the one that i want to share the most with all of you today.

So to all..Merry christmas, happy boxing day and happy new year!

Gummi being featured in Pet magazine.

]]> http://kadazanbonita.com/reflection-2010/feed/ 0 http://kadazanbonita.com/pigging-out/ http://kadazanbonita.com/pigging-out/#comments Tue, 14 Dec 2010 08:34:32 +0000 Mel http://kadazanbonita.com/?p=3022 oh i sungguh the sleepy now… celaka betul! And it’s really not helping with me having all these period symptom…MAKANNNNNNNNNNNNNN saja, today saja sia sudah makan satu bowl prawn mee, satu siew pau, satu egg tart… there is another plastic bag waiting for me to ravish it… ada.. california temaki and 4 small sushi!! ARGGGGGG PIG!!! Pas tu..sia PENATTTTTTmemanjang! MALASSSSSSSSSS pun ada…aiya! Susah la jadi woman ni.

Gonna try to beat this craziness today in the gym, yesterday i missed my workout because of last minute plan changes.. we went Christmas present shopping pula..LOL! a very short and fast Christmas shopping.. hoping that i could do my workout routine at home..tapi came home with blister on my kaki pula! Celaka punya kasut tinggi! Pakai too long sampai kaki sakit.. so end up no workout. Balik rumah kononnya mau blog, tapi i have so many present waiting to be wrapped.. na.. trus tidak blog lagi.. so basically my plan for yesterday semua rosak la…

I hope today’s plan will go as planned la… kalau inda sigh… naik la berat badan ni…

I still can’t think what to give Dan for his Christmas present this year.. im getting really anxious, tired and bit irritated cos i can’t seem to think what to give him..isk! Susah la jadi lelaki ni…sigh.

Karang i beli barcode scanner for him baru tau…LOL! macam mana tu ar?? apa la kunun dia bulih buat with that scanner?? Scanner si Gummi?? heheheheh..sigh.. anyway..i better go la.. nanti ja la sia sia kasih upload my workout routine bila sia sudah try it ..:)

Today’s post not gonna talk much about workout but it will be about my dog Gummi.

As you all already know, she has been diagnosed with chronic kidney problem recently and it was a heart breaking news for us but we are trying to cope with it the best way we can.

No one can tell how long will she still be with us but both of us hoping it will be few more years, i’m not ready to let her go…honestly.

It has been 2 days now since she’s on her dialysis pill… she seems to be coping well with it..she got her appetite back but she seems to be drinking less water..another headache and scary thing to see… if she get’s too dehydrated..we will have to admit her and get her on drip. SIGH…

Dan checked online and did some research on this kidney problem..apparently it’s a common thing for dog over the age of 4.. so to those of you out there who have a pet dog who aged more than 4 years old, i suggest do go and have their blood test done at least once every year if not 6 months once… that’s how i found out about gummi’s problem anyway.

Blood test won’t cost you much , i believe it ranges from rm50 – rm100 depending on the place and clinic that you go to. Gummi’s blood test cost me Rm80. What cost us the most is actually her can food formulated specially for kidney patience..which is at Rm8.20 a day and her dialysis pill that she needs to take daily which is at rm2.75 each pill.

She will be going back to the clinic again next month and get her blood test done.. hopefully some improvement on her blood reading… Im really hoping it will improve and not go spiraling down the drain although i know kidney once rosak..no turning back sudah….but still i am hoping for some miracles…

I will update this blog on Gummi’s progression every now and then..

Anyhow, here is my workout for this week…550 reps workout.. actually i tried doing this last week but i could not finish the whole routine sebab ada saja yang mengacau time time sia workout ..got fed up with it, i left the workout just like that.. but im gonna finish it this week and hoping that no trainers give me a heart attack or headache while i try to chill and relax and get my workout done! If not im gonna ask them to buy me a corsets next time around cos they’re hindering me from getting my six pack done! DANG IT!

My routine:

for warm up i did 20min  cardio  at 15% gradient , speed at 5.5 max.

My strength training:

1- Full squat with 10kg barbell.- 50 reps

2-Curtsy lunges leg lift with kettlebell 15 ponds- 50 reps

3-Pike Jump- 50reps

4-Butt raise – 50 reps

5- deadlift with 10kg- 50reps

6- Leg elevated dog pee workout- 50 reps

7- half burpee and push up- 50 reps

8- step up chair with hamstring stretch- 50 reps

9- over the chair kick- 50reps

10-side plank- 50 reps

11- small abs crunches- 50 reps.

so yup guys, that’s my workout for this week… of cos it wont be all the way 550 reps workout ..i will mix it with time challenge again.. but have not decided on what it is just yet. Once done, i will info info sini…

Oh i forgot, aside from her dialysis pills and diet, she is also required to take vit b and c to help her immune system.. half a pill a day and yes..it’s human vitamin b and c that she’s taking…Doc advice.

And her dialysis pill have to be chilled below 4 degree Celsius

And this is her after her clinic session the other day

Eating her carrot…:)

SO TRUE!! HE IS SUCH A PAIN IN THE ASS!!! INFACT I THINK THAT NITE.. SOMEONE STUFFED CACTUS INTO HIS ANUS!  I thought he was my friend but i guess i was wrong on this one, he should have this sticker, sticking on him 24 hours! But then again, i should have known better.. waktu kerja dulu sama dia, ramai juga my colleagues yang lain tell me..he is really cunning and kuat tembirang..i guess now it’s true! Oh well..

Tembirang la kau sebanyak mana..akhirnya..tembirang kaling kau tu akan terpecah keluar juga seperti mana kau tipu sia yang kau akan simpan my secret dulu kan?? TSK TSK TSK.. kau sudah tipu sia sekali.. sia masih terima kau sebagai kawan, now when you said my wedding reception is crappy.. i think that’s a lil too much Mr and i don’t think i can forgive you that fast this time around! As friend i think you should be happy for me and  not coming to my wedding and  bitch about it to another friend of ours and walk away from the dinner reception as soon as we walked in. So insulting i tell you.. no respect langsung! Kalau jeles cakap.. jangan bitch about our wedding to our other friends who was sitting next to you the other day..and if you can’t afford to have garden wedding for your wife.. MAN UP DUDE.. wedding is all about your budget and preference at the end of the day..BUKAN siapa lebih kaya and siapa punya wedding lebih grand! Or telling others that our wedding ceremony should have been this way and that way.. Let me ask you this ,WHO ARE YOU AGAIN???!!  DID YOU CONTRIBUTE ANY THING IN THIS WEDDING? IF NO… shut the fuck up already and MAN UP TO YOUR WIFE and tell her..sorry woman i can’t afford garden wedding like this. We just have to do it in a hotel ballroom!  I mean,you must be hurting and full of envy that nite…. that you turn into such a sour man!

Aiya, ni la ba ni kalau orang yang suka tembirang and menunjuk and inda mau mengaku kalah.. susah!

Hmm…banyak lagi sia mau cakap.. tapi cukup la sampai sini ja ni malam.. sampai sini ja la sia meluahkan geram and sakit hati sia.. marah memanjang pun teda guna juga…

Bagus lagi sia cakap pasal weight loss supplements dari buang karan cakap pasal dia.. bulih lagi sia cari cara macam mana mau lose weight…LOL!

Oh didn’t i tell you?? My mom is here for 3 weeks holiday!!! YEAY!!!” GRIN” So for the past few days.. i have been getting loads of MOMMY TLC heheheheh….i really like but hmm in few more days to go she will be leaving back to kk lagi…BORING!!!

With mom being here, i don’t have to say la,…. my weight have shoot up like crazy too! Im feeling super bloated now. MAKANNNNNNN ja kerja. Mom’s cooking is the best, no matter how simple is the cooking.. tetap sedap juga tu makanan.. mom’s magic i must say and since mommy’s arrival…. sia SAH SUDAH  jadi PEMALASSSSSSSSSSS!! MALAS mau pi kerja, malas mau workout mau duduk rumah ja  and spend time with mom…hahahahahahahahah.. mana la inda bertambah sia punya babat!! ODOI DOGO!!!

Hmmm ni belum lagi sampai Christmas party invitations… imagine kalau sudah sampai Christmas time… sia jadi la vogoks ni..aiseh!!

I need to get back into my gym routine, stopped working out for the past 2 weeks.. the first week sebab Daniel sakit, second week sia pula sakit…tapi takkan sia kasih tinggal my mom kan? Hmmmm… kalau sia kasi tinggal mom satu orang.. inda bagus pula sia rasa.. so selfish.. aiya! Decision decision!! My muffin top is getting thicker and bigger by day! Yesterday sia nampak perut sia bncit macam sia ni 2 bulan preggy!! UWAAAAAAAAAAAAAA..inda ku sanggup! Kalau betul betul preggy inda pa juga… ni preggy pun inda…aisehmen!

Sighhhhhhh.. how la i want to do my interview ni bila i feel bloated like crazy? I don’t feel good about myself now, how to convince tv viewer then? ISK!!!

Like i said in the previous post, because of my shout out i posted in facebook..i received an advice from someone whom i have lost contact with for more than 10 years.

We found one another in facebook recently (i think 1 month after i got married) and have added each other into our friend list. All these while, i have only spoken to her twice in facebook. Once to congratulate her on her upcoming (then) wedding and recently wishing her happy birthday. That was the only contact we’ve made over the past 10 years.

And with that two contact we’ve made, she seems to be thinking she knows me very well already. ( well, that’s how i feel..i mean she must be right?? Because she can write me an email and give me an advice… AMPLE advice some more she said, LOL)

I for once won’t and will never give an advice to someone whom i do not know very well , whats more if i don’t know the whole story. I think it’s plain rude to do so and most probably you will only be looking for trouble by offending your friends apalagi kalau you like to go on an ASSUMING MODE! That’s really no good!

Well this dear friend of mine did exactly just that…she send me an advice, going on ASSUMING MODE on the whole situation… and the way she gave me the advice…OMG!! It came across to me, not as an advice but pretty much like someone who has nothing else better to do but just being plain NOSY!

Dear.. ko gaduh ka ngan hubby..if butul ko gaduh geng..
kita isteri yg baik baik gaduh dlm bilik kn..
ample reminder as a good fren..
no hurt feeling kay muah..

That’s exactly what she wrote to me in my FB email….Now if you were me… wouldn’t you be offended with that? What does she meant by “KITA ISTERI YG BAIK BAIK GADUH DLM BILIK KN”??

Is she trying to tell me im no good as a wife??Is she telling me she is a good wife? What and who gave her that idea? Is it because she recently became someone’s wife so she is a good wife now and have the whole idea on how to become a good wife already??

I mean, even if i wanna fight with my husband in public, is that your problem? Even if i wanna scream and shout .. is that your problem? And kalau pun sia mau bernaked in my fb…will that be your issue as well and will give me an advice?

As human, i believe everything has it’s limit… and giving advice not knowing the head and tails of the whole matter is one of them….secondly, if you do not know that person well… that’s already your BIG BIG BIG Sign telling you…BACK OFF! Geez….

If you are wondering did i reply her email back..HELL YEA i did…LOL! Let’s just say her reply back after that …. TYPICAL THEM…..
I’m close minded person, different religion ( what does this gotta do with the whole thing ar?), She met the wrong person( that’s me she referring too) and i am someone who can’t accept advice apparently….

“thinking to myself, won’t everyone react the same way as me kalau you don’t know the person well apalagi bila teda contact for 10 years plus and then out of the blue.. Your friend mau pandai pandai bagi advice and main assume ja the whole situation without knowing head and tails of it??” Kalau kau inda react like me… i salute you la that you can let people “intrude’ your life.

Hmmm… anyway.. i think i need some serious Branson Missouri vacation already la… too much shit crap, nosy people lately in my facebook and i definitely need to delete those people off from my life…… Husband says it will do me good which i agree with that 100% too!

Ok,so Im married but that doesn’t mean i need to go into bonking frenzy fest and get pregnant in an instance, righttttttttt??

When i say, i eat a lot more lately and always feel hungry  does that mean i am pregnant sudah?  Don’t they ever think it may be because of my monthly cycle is coming to visit me?

Worse orang yang suka buat guessing game ni kan…semua orang yang sia inda rapat with..people yang jarang sia jumpa… or talk with even… aiya..kepoh sungguh!

I dont know about you, but i do feel PREGNANCY TOPIC  is a sensitive issue to be put as a guessing game.. and the fact that some people like to put words into my status that’s really stupid! You know what i mean? Like when someone said… “i think you are pregnant mel” or ” na, pregnant sudah kau tu mel kalau macam tu” I would like to ask you this- How do you know?? You see my body? You checked my body? You are my body? You feel what i feel? and how do you know i can conceive or not in the first place? Sigh, why can’t people have the brain to be bit more sensitive about this topic ar??

Rest assure guys, when im pregnant i will tell the whole world about it… i will..but for now,let Dan and i do what we need to do, ok

Im tired of having to explain myself every month on FB…i know i don’t need to explain but it just irritate the freak out of me all the time.

Now i know how newly wed feels when everyone asked them the same question almost everyday..teda kerja diorang ni tau!

SOT!

FYI,  Pregnancy topic is not like choosing mens ties topic ….whether the couple is  trying to conceive  or just letting the course taking it’s place …mesti ada juga tu rasa disappointment sikit bila the monthly cycle yang datang visit instead of the good news…so please be sensitive towards your friends with this topic, lain la kalau the couple langsung inda mau baby.

Kalau mau menanya tu pun.. biarla bertempat. Jangan pula menanya di shout out box orang and macam buat announcement before the couple sendiri buat announcement pula.. that’s what common sense mean peeps.

But being human, i can’t help but feel unsafe no more… i won’t deny it that i am now traumatized with the whole thing. I don’t even wanna stay outside at my living room too long alone, i feel like someone is watching me all the time. I would rather wait till Daniel is near home then i will leave the office, i would switched on all the lights outside the balcony where they came in from all nite long and today…. when i walked in the house..i never walk into my room until Dan arrive home! I am so worried that they will be hiding inside the house.. although i know ….the same burglar will not go into the same house twice..but still…who know what bad luck we will get anyway.

Even walking down the corridor gives me a creep now… i now walk like a retarded person i feel..i keep looking behind..side just in case someone watching me and hold my bag like there is soooo much of gold in it,LOL! Padahal..kosong! But yea..i can’t help but worry for my own safety.

Sigh, i don’t know how long will i feel like this… but i do hope i will be able to move on from here..

“God forgive me for being unable to forgive this idiot,but for what he has done… i do hope he will be punished in the worse way and let him suffer and please give me the strength to be able to move on”

I think i better stop talking now before my eczema attack gets worse.. nanti tak tentu pasal i need to find eczema treatment pula, not that im not on one now anyway..heheh..yes, i have eczema..so what???!! it got bit bad lately specially with all the stress i was having before my wedding in KK…:P

Im currently staying in Tanjung Bunga hotel. The room is ok , i have bath tub ( yey!) which i always berendam in every night. My view is facing the ocean with biggggggggg window The only downside of this hotel is that everything in this place is super expensive! Internet is not free.. so if you wanna have connection you will have to pay Rm8 per hour or Rm25 for a day use! Nasib la bosscat and lizzy is here to  pinjam me their broadband and bawa me makan around…kalau tidak im sure i will be bored to death here. and maybe tumbuh balik my adult acne …terlalu stress sebab boring punya pasal. LOL!! ‘touch wood”

Anyway, i know i promised to blog about my after experience from my RCIA retreat..tapi sia rasa .. i would just keep that for now.. nanti bila sia betul betul ready…maybe one day i will story story again

Tadi pagi ba.. ada ni middle east couple.. bikin gerigitan oh! My hotel provide breakfast in the morning..so sia selalunya makan toast saja..im not a breakfast person ba. So while i was waiting for the bread to come out from the toaster sia pi la letak my coffee on my table. I somehow knew that the MAN want to take my bread instead of making one for himself…..but sia inda juga mau tegur terus..i was waiting what was his next move!

Can you believe what he did next?? Instead of taking my bread… he actually pi tekan my bread and then letak balik!!! Of cos, when that happen….sia tegur dia terus… told him hey that’s my toast! And you know what? ..That idiot did not even bother to say sorry!! The couple just pretended that dia inda dengar me.. and walked away! ARGGGGGGG.. punya la bikin gerigitan!! Sial betul ni… benci sia oh!

Of cos, i did not bother to take the toast anymore, made a new one after that..siapa la mau pi makan makanan yg orang sudah pi pegang and kau inda pun tau dari mana tu tangan dia keluar and pigi… isk!  Never knew ada juga orang macam tu masih… padahal can afford to stay in this expensive hotel….teda adat langsung oh diorang sia rasa ni! EEEEEEE..sakit hati!

Tmrw… kalau sia nampak lagi dia buat perkara yg sama to me….i wont let it go just like that..i will make sure..everyone hear me  in the restaurant. Tired of people like this…

Although the manager was really nice to by offering me the job.. i turned it down at the end of the day. It is definitely not because i was so malu-fied by my car incident.. but i got a better job offer like i said,  i got 3 job offers in line remember?? . That was when i came back to the fitness industry. The pay was similar to what i was being offered at the first job offer ( where my car was nearly towed away) maybe even more by end of the month actually becuuase it was a sales industry.. but i don’t dare to take the challenge to be sales person again.. after i think i failed miserably on my second job outside of fitness industry…LOL! ( tinting consultant)

So June was the mark of my life changing to a better life.. no it was not rosy straight away, i have so much baggage carried on my shoulder from the pass 1 year half.. all those bad things that happen to me really made me scared of what’s gonna happen next and that was my relationship that i was worried about. You see, like i said..Dan and i went through bad patch, really bad patch that made me think.. is it worth it? Should i really continue with this?

And then something happen.. i was sent to Jakarta for month for work.. all that time when we had our bad patch.. all i ever wanted was to be away from Daniel.. a time for myself to think about what i really want in my life and my relationship and of cos to give Dan some space of his own to think things through.  That was a good 1 month break from each other…

When i was away from him, i tried not to think about him, care about him and worried about him.. but that’s what exactly took place when i was in JKT… i miss him. I miss his jokes, his morning kisses, his morning perfume smell.. just him being him and around me. I miss that.. but of cos, i never really admitted that to him.. i let me ego do the talking. I was hurt and still bitter with whatever happen the past few months before…the argument we go through was too much for me.. i believe it was too much for him too.. for us to be arguing like there is no tmrw. At one point, i even asked him to call our engagement OFF!  Yes, i was that upset.. but i know.. deep down that’s not what i really wanted and i thank God that he did not listen to my crazy self talking .. Dan never gave up on us. Instead he was there for me.

July came.. that was the month that made me nervous like hell!! July was the month we got engaged …

As some of you might already know now, kadazadusun  has so much of adat resam when it comes to engagement or wedding or any big celebration.and that’s one of the main reason why i was nervous. I was so worried that Dan’s parent could not take the ” rules and regulation”  that the night before our engagement day..nerve build up….Dan and i had a small disagreement .. and trust me that did not help me at all.. hahah i was not able to sleep well the night before the engagment day. The morning came..i tell you… it was a nerve wrecking for me… seeing and listening to both parents talking and discussing .. ohhhhh… did not do me any good. The whole time when they were doing the talk.. the “adult talk” they called it, i was so nervous nasib la sia inda sampai pi ambil Medicare supplement plan, lol! …I believe Dan was nervous too… heheheeh   ” I won’t tell them my love, your secret safe with me ”

I was only able to smile, relax and enjoy my engagement day after the ring exchanging ceremony… hahahhahaha.. yes me being silly and worrying so much for no reason.. i should have listened and trust Daniel that everything will be ok.. i won’t go through the moment of torturing myself and be nervous isn’t it?? I am sure the video that was taken by Dan’s uncle will be a proved of me being nervous…hahaha.. i hope he won’t show that during our wedding day.. malu eh!

Picture on our engagement day

To be continue again…..

Conversation..yea, everyone does that in daily life.. talk, talk, talk and talk… we can’t live without talking! That’s the fact! If not, no genius will create handphone or even house phone, right? But, nope im not gonna talk about telephone or handphone..but a weird conversation i had…yes, it was so weird to me that it made me think..are they for real or just being plain rude and insensitive?

My weirdest conversation happen when i was sent to Jakarta last june for training. It was lunch time. I was having lunch with 2 colleagues of mine. A girl and a boy. Both of them are younger then me. Rewind few days before the lunch incedent.. let’s name the girl J.

When i met J the first few days, she would not want to come and talk to me much.. i do not know why, but i put that as she is one shy girl. She would pass me by and gave me a quick smile and walk away..day in day out…the most she would ask me “mel, udah makan?” or How are you today mel… and that’s it .. nothing more nothing less. She is just that type of a person to me..doesnt do much talking and a real shy girl..

But all that changed when we had lunch.

You see, J didn’t came down with me to have lunch together..but so happen that there was no empty spot at the canteen and she was sitting all alone…i decided to join her and thought to myself..this will be an opportunity for me to get to know her better. First few minute of the conversation went well, she asked me “normal” questions but that all changed when the male colleague of mine decided to sit with us together….

J: Mel, mel pergi saloon selalu ya?

Me: No la..mel don’t go saloon (beauty parlour) often. Di Malaysia saloon mahal!  Tidak seperti di JKT..

J: Oh iya…tapi kenapa ketiak mel putih??? Mel pakai pemutih ketiak ya??

Me:  Gasp… Dumbfounded… taken aback….

What the hell! What kind of questions is this la??  I do not know how to react to it..be upset? laugh my ass out? or take that as compliment?

Me: I dont use any of those stuff.. i don’t believe in those product.

J: Tapi mel punya ketiak cukup putih…cantik… ketiak J hitam banyak tompokkan..jelek banget dan oleh kerana itu, J malu mau pakai singlet..

At this point, i could see she was actually looking at my armpit and the male colleague turn around and look at it too..OMG!! I was so malu and felt awkward terus ok… so happen on that day i was wearing sleeves top!!!i seriously do not know how to reply her back..

Thank goodness the male colleague of mine cut in and sort of stop the conversation…

He said: I think mel do not shave her armpit hair but instead she pluck it out..hence why  she do not have that razor bumps on her armpit-

Me: ‘Nod”

ask myself…she’s watching my armpit all this while???? WHY, WHEN and HOW?

J: ok….continue eating her lunch as if nothing happen…

I tell you that was one of the worse conversation i ever had in my whole life..dah la  I do not know her well, she asked me over lunch pula tu and it have to take place in front of a male collague whom i just get to know too!! OMG!!!

It really made me feel awkward… malu-fied ( yes, i was malufied ok) and geez… of cos offended!

I know she didn’t talk bad or meant ill towards me ..tapi .. takkan la kau tanya that kind of question to someone whom you just met like few days ago kan? Lagi lagi kalau tu orang kau punya manager and sort of your club guest…kalau dia tanya sia when im alone,  i don’t mind at all tapi… ni depan lelaki ba..astaga!!! Pengsan!

Btw, apparently she watched me whenever i lift my hands up to tie my hair  or while im working out!

Here’s some tips that might help,  if you are facing the same problem as J.  Good luck!

Shaving

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Waxing
Waxing removes hair from

Epilating
If you feel you must remain hair-free on a daily basis, instead of

Ba, penat sudah sia cerita pasal underarm ni… baik you and i surf this site office furniture lagi syiok,

It felt like it happen only yesterday that i  got HITCHED officially and now looking back it’s  nearly two months since 18.07.09 ( few more days it’s going to be two month) .

Both of us was so busy right after the engagement..we didn’t really get to enjoy our new status  as newly “ENGAGED”  and now we are already on the roll with the wedding plan.  The only time we had for ourself to enjoy our newly engaged status was our Krabi holiday..LOL!

As soon as we got back from kk.. things just got into fast farward mode ( that’s how i felt) i have to study and prepare my training module, going into meetings after meetings and then straight on to conducting training after training. On top of that, every weekend now we have to do loads of travelling, checking  out wedding stuff, flowers, venues, cakes.. make up artist..etc etc and not to forget..i have RCIA class to attend. Wahahahahhaahah… FULL BLAST YO!

In month of october, we have wedding course to attend, Feb flying back to KK for wedding interview and  i guess when we are there.. another loads of stuff to check and see. I am lucky to have my sister Anitha to help me out with kk side wedding reception..if not..haha, im sure im gonna pull my hair out!  Not a pretty sight to see when the bride start pulling her hair isn’t it..LOL!!!

Ahh.. even writing this up made me feel “waaa..so banyak kerja” but im not alone… I have a strong support from my family back home, sister and brother is running the whole show there, im so lucky to have them as my siblings… kalau inda i have no idea how am i gonna deal with the whole situation i believe.

In Kl, i have Dan’s mom, brother and cousin  sister helping us out and of cos… my strong macho man Daniel.

Saw this NC short term health insurance, that reminds me..i need to get my insurance stuff done too soon. ah..another to do list..

The front view of the wedding gown which was posted at my earlier post.

I am ready to be  the wife to Mr Daniel Franklin Gomez

We’ve been very busy lately specially the weekend. Never really had a time to sit, relax and enjoy the weekend anymore like how we used to be hehe..but im enjoying every second of it. Although it is really tiring but heck…im not complaining at all, LOL!! Which woman would complain when you get to try on like tonnes of beautiful gown and make you feel like a princess at every fitting kan?

This was one of the gown fitting i did at Pretty in White in Hartamas… Love the detailing on the train…i think its gorgeous but nope..this is not gonna be my wedding gown ;P ni teaser saja ba…

Ba ok la..im off to check out online backup. I need that magic lil stuff to store all my pictures and work. My laptop memory is getting “stuffier” by day now..:P

I feel like i just ran through a steel buildings after the training today… urg..i hate that feeling, the feeling of being helpless, worried and not to mention emotionally hurt.

I was disappointed with the whole training session today, specially the morning session.   The more i get to know the team here.. the more worried i am. sigh.. i really feel like im in the Grid iron movie. The team lack of team spirit, respect and demotivated. Not to mention attitude issue.. sigh.  Everyone came to training with their own issue…

Although deep down in me, i am telling myself to hang on, be patience but other part of me.. irritated, getting emo and at the same time..feel sad to these trainers.

I wish i was given more time to get to know them better, at least training wont be so tough ( that’s how i think la) Breaking the ice with these trainer is so hard..specially when EGO is involved. They think that they are superb and don’t need anymore follow up training..sigh.

Oh well, i pray that i will be strong and lots of patience.

I wonder what else can i do to motivate these people, change their attitude and start respecting themselves? I see they have sooo much potential in them but the attitude covers all their good qualities. I wish they can see that in themselves.

Floating village..

I really enjoy this boat ride. despite me being wet with the unpredictable weather in Krabi

See… exactly what i said.. sekejap sana tu awan jadi hitam.. and bikin takut ar, sebab the wind was soo strong macam ada ribut pula sia rasa kadang kadang.

Me, riding bike on my own. I manage juga.. tapi inda la pi jalan raya.. only at the  hotel parking area. Best pula kan ride motor ni…LOL!LOL!

This was taken on the day we’re leaving Krabi…hahah kesian ba kami .. kepunan matahari Krabi.

Just like the signage i was holding said.. this restaurant serve clean and good food!! Yummy.. tapi jangan harap makanan sini murah sangat….1 beef, vege , tom yam soup (small), 2 steam rice and 2 drinks.. can cost you up to Rm 34-36  but you won’t regret it la.

Ba sia mau surf  and look for tv stands dulu, i think it’s time for me to do so.. get a new tv stand at home

Ba, till then. Nite peeps.