Kadazan Bonita

Understanding my body… yep, this is one thing that i still struggle up to this day. It changes every now and then.. as you aged.. the more drastic changes sets it.. either you like it or not… you got to live with it.

At the age of 30, i have gone from super lean look to not so lean look to full grown woman body.. yes, i know i should be thankful and feel blessed with these body but having been living with an ATHLETIC LOOK for almost all of my life… this changes has just thrown me out of my comfort zone!

I used to live with only less than 20% of my body fat..heck it was lesser than 15% actually. I was  lean.. well toned body..and proud of my super almost visible 6 packs ( 4 packs definitely but 6 packs almost visible) … as i aged…my metabolism slows down..my ass got heavier.. i got lazier and  my bodyfat percentage shoot up! It wasn’t that bad at first.. it was only like 18% … but as i reach mid 20′s i realized that my body started changing.. I’m growing more hips… I’m growing bigger boobs ( not that i’m complaining about it, cos it not la besar sangat) i’m also pilling up tiers on my so called 6 packs! Goodness gracious! I definitely panicked.. but did i change my lifestyle? NOPE,  i did not… I still continue eating as how i used to when i was younger ( yes, habit die hard) living in denial… telling myself  that i am still young.. i could afford to eat this much amount and i still worked out what.. so why need changes?

Little did i know… all that amount of unhealthy food that i used to take will actually stay WAYYYYYYYYYYYY longer in my system and give me the effect wayyyyyyyyyyyyyy much later in my life…by late 20′s my bodyfat percentage have gone from 15% to 18%  to 20% and now at the age of 30 my bodyfat percentage is sitting nicely and comfortably  at 23%!!  ARGGG!!!

Everyone thinks i look good, i look sexy, i have the right amount of “meat” at the right place…but seriously.. do i feel all that? I don’t.  I know too well that if i don’t keep myself in checked all the time.. that 23% could well turned to 33% by the next 10 years… do i want that to happen?? NO, i don’t.  But genetic plays a big role in life… i have big size genetic.. i gain easily… and to lose it.. it’s not as easy as it was before. Yes, i used to gain it.. and lose it back just like that… and because of this ” magic” now you see, now you don’t weight.. i also have “earned” few stretch marks here in there in my body part… sigh.. but i am still thankful that i don’t have it on my arms..:( oh and don’t mentioned about cellulite’s… I have tonnes of that in me.. I’m more than willing to share it with you if you need some… My whole legs  covered with them! YUCK! As i get older… it becomes more visible… it scares the hell out of me!

Can we all lose our cellulite?? NOPE! We can’t ..again.. this is your genetic..you have to live with it as i am now… all you can do.. work out hard and hope that all that muscle you have gained while working out .. will cover it up for you…

So now, at the age of 30… i am just picking up the pace again where i have left when i was at the age of 27… i stopped working out completely from age 27 till 29 1/2 and i’m paying it now with all these unwanted extra pounds on me….

It’s hard to be honest, working out is something that i need to adapt to again after so long.. but if i want to live longer and healthier.. i know i have to make the sacrifices now for my own future… nothing comes easy anyway in life.. you got to work to earn it. Either in smart way or hard way…..

As for healthy eating habit… this is another part that i am still learning at the moment.. and trying to make it a habit.. BLOODY HARD,  i know. So to those people out there…who keep asking me about food… my advice to you is… if you think you can’t make the drastic change and know well that you will fall back to where you came from after 1 or 2 weeks of healthy eating… i would say, start with just cutting your normal portion size by half , after 1 month or so move on to cutting/ eliminating the bad food from your list ..1 or 2 item at a time and from there..slowly increase the amount… and if you ever fall back to old habits.. don’t give up.. keep going.. It’s not the amount of time you failed counts but it’s how determined you are with it….:) I know i have fallen back to the ” bad eating” category few times now.. but i pick myself up again whenever i think i am there…healthy eating habit can be tough.. but it can be tough only if you want to make it tough on yourself…. being healthy is all up to you at the end of the day.. if you are not ready for it… memang susah,  but if you have that clear mind set of what you want.. i believe..everything will be easy for you.

So here i am today… at the age of 30… i am now  working my cute round butt out  with my crazy cute round butt husband in the gym where i’m attached to now…. Will it be easy for both of us.. NOPE, it won’t but i have put my mind to it and i know nothing can stop me from trying to achieve my goal of 18% body fat… well unless if im pregnant la that is… LOL!

” Crossing my fingers and toes really hard now”